How To Time ..

I've been going back and fourth for the past few weeks on the best way to structure this blog and deliver the information. 

That said, I've decided to get in to the "how to" part first. If you feel like you're at a breaking point, for whatever reason, and you're serious about reclaiming your life, then I'd rather get into "how to make it happen" vs posting about all the dark days of my adderall addiction. Not to dismiss what I went through, ultimately it makes my experience relatable, but it's not the most important part. Yet. 

"Dude, there is no FUCKING way I can quit taking adderall right now  "___ insert excuse here___"

Yeah, I get it. The timing will never be right. Unless you take a month off.. or can afford to fly down to Peru for a week long ayahuasca induced purge. 

Listen. The timing sucked for me too. I was working 12 hour days at a high pressure financial services firm. I would party and drink heavily after work to blow off steam .. get maybe 4 to 5 hours of sleep. Rinse and repeat. Long story short.. my life started to split at the seams. More about the dark days later.

You are going to need to fight this battle on 3 fronts. 

The first is physical - If you have ever blown through your meds before your script gets re filled, you know what the withdrawal can feel like. Fatigue. All you want to do is sleep.. the world stops. It's hell. Thankfully there are some ways to ease this. It will still suck .. but not quite as bad.

The second is mental - Getting off adderall is decision, a line in the sand, no matter what happens, you WILL NEVER GO BACK! For me  .. this came in the form of surrender. I'd hit rock bottom. Loss of job... not from performance, I was downsized. Loss of girlfriend .. totally my fault and severely damaged relationships with friends.  

You will have tough days rebuilding your life or just getting back to who you were before your adderall adventure. Ultimately, your reason for quitting has to be bigger than your addiction. You'll find it. 

The third is spiritual -stay with me for a second. I don't care if you pray to God, the Universe, or Mickey Fucking Mouse, getting through your day, in the first part of your withdrawal will most likely have you leaning on something greater than yourself. Especially if you quit "cold-turkey." I prayed to God for strength, sometimes minute to minute, and it helped. So, take it for what it's worth...

Next Post - Cold Turkey vs Tapering Off. How to fight fatigue. What supplements help.

Let's Begin

Starting this blog has been on my heart .. and mind for a while. So I guess it's go time. Maybe in some distant corner of the inter-webs, someone can relate to everything I went through. Maybe I can inspire someone to make a change. 

Unequivocally, with out a doubt, my life has become more fulfilling, meaningful, enriched and connected after I stopped using/ abusing Adderral. How much? 90 to 150 mg a day. 

I intend to expand on my full spectrum of experience from invincible, euphoric, world-in-the-palm-of-my-hand highs to crushing, rock bottom, spun out, suicidal lows. 

I'm not your doctor and I'm not here to give advice (gotta have a disclaimer). My hope is you will relate to my experiences and find some inspiration in your life to make a change.

I'll tell you how I did it, what to expect, supplements that can help ease your transition, and what to expect on the other side.

Obviously this is a new blog... bear with me while I pretty it up a bit.